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woo hoo! my most ever dreaded phy chen lab is finally over and i can really enjoy my last days in uni with ease and joy! yeah…but i have begun to enjoy my lab after builiding up the rapport with my labby mates..i tink lab can never be so fun without them..

i must remember what i learn today.. ariane’s got bad memory i dunno y.. i tink i need to eat more ginko biloba.. hahah.. and i learnt AAS today.. the operating procedure is pretty easy.. and the machine is more humnongous than what i thought initially.. there’s is tube protruding which literally sucks the soln into the machine prior to analysis.. and then AAS willl then calibrate the graph.. but care must be taken that the absorption plateau must be reached before the next analysis.. i must remember that..

there was some difficulty in the preparation of the test solution involving the use of the micro pipette.. and the first button is to suck up the sol and then press all the way down to fully expel the solution… i tink that was how we go wrong.. or was the solution contaminated? the R value explains the linearity… quite bad.. 0.993..

i tink the whole saga in lab is about teasing ppl.. and i’ve had a  great time crappin with YL.. there she is.."confusing my identity" … haha… just because we’re all from girl’s sch… IJ ppl abit siao wan.. haha.. yep.. i do agree with YL that Jo is really attractive.. and have this X factor that i tink few ppl would have it.. she’s really very cool.. but i think she’s will kinda shy off whenevr we tease her or question her identity… anyway.. we’re all straights.. hahha… so ya.. just for the fun of it..but i tink jo’s really stress today.. i saw her staring blankly into the volumetric flask… ya.. tests are all up lately..

the few of us thus slacked at the pink tables - where the cool ppl hang out-and we chatted and crapped for 2 hours.. yeah.. about our fav tpic.. BGR.. kinda funny actually we can just yak anything about it.. yep.. i’ll jus reminicse such times when i grad.. it’s just once in a while we could just gather and talk crap.. just like the we seldom get to hang at the pink tables with garry, SX and the guys..

but the funny thingy is that YL thought i couldnt get over my ex still.. kept linking to him..quite amuzing at how she know about us.. ok.. sci … but to me.. it’s something very very very far away.. this person sounds foreign..like i heard daniel callin for him few wks back.. and i thought who was it.. that the name sounded familiar but dunnoe where i heard from..( i really have bad memory).. heard he’s attached.. ahah.. orh ok… haha..

everyone grows after a fall.. i did.. i hope he did too =)

yeah.. 3225 lect cancelled for tmr.. can slp later! yippee!

haerd joey yung’s song and i think she really rocks.. her voice is really very stereo.. ahah.. and i realised a trend.. canto singers can jusy sing better in their canto songs.. and that mandarin songs seemed awkward when they sing.. they have a kind of cantonese ‘trail’ when sing mandarin pop.. wonder if u can notice that.. perhaps because there’s some cantonese blood in me.. thus, im more exposed to the canto accent when they talk…

just when my aunty’s here now at my place and it’s raining now.. she’ll go..

"现在落雨了！“

haha.. she really brought her canto roots in the mandarin conversation..

well.. talking about my roots i think i feel ashamed.. of not being able to speak my own language.. my hainanese language which is about to be extinct..

and because of that, i almost got in trouble with my grandma when my cousin sabotaged me.. she told me to ask my grandma to ‘jiak dai’..( which means eat shit) when it was supposed to be ‘jiak sai’..(eat vegetables).. heng ah.. i tested out on my uncle .. and he had a good laugh.. imagine if i tell my grand ma to ‘jiak dai’..

the only hainanese i knew was ‘nang bu dee nang..gwee bu dee gwee’.. which means 人不像人，鬼不像鬼。。。

haha.. i will use it to scold my stupid cousins..

i am soooooo fed up.. with my most dreaded physical chem lab report… argh..

some times i wonder how does dH = -nFe + nFT(dE/dT) affect my life…

the lab reports are so much tougher than those i came across in FCI lab.. it was a breeze then.. even when i did them without any help…what’s more important is the MSDS…

some times.. i also wonder.. is there anyone living in my blog..is there anyone reading………..

hello…..

hello……….

hello?

no response…

can u just say hi ?

hello……………….( i hear echos)

names..

im sorry to have pissed many people off or have caused them distress just to pronounce my name..

some say "arin"..some say "arien".. etc..

and im quite particular about people enunciating my name correctly.. because i feel that it’s a form of respect whenever you call someone by the name…

ariane-  it’s a name given by my dad when  i was older… it’s pronounced as ‘eh-rianne" sounds like ‘ei/-ri-anne" but in 2 syllabus..haha..

it’s “a-ree-ann”..

name is important..and im quite particular at pronouncing them correctly..

like days ago, one of my student’s name was ‘Xan’… and it sounded like ‘cyan’.. as in ’sai yearn’..

i’ve learnt phonetics (fə-nĕt‘ĭk)before, and 1 common name that is commonly mispronounced is ‘eileen’… it’s not ‘ee-lynn’ but ‘ai-lynn’..i remember my teacher ms tessensohn once said…

haha..  but not as funny as my mum’s student.. he’s  from HK and his name was chow chee fai.. (zhou zhi hui).. and it sounded like some vulgarity..guess his parents was oblivious to the hokkien language..

well. in anway, my name’s ariane… nice to meet you… and  whenever i see someone who has trouble pronouncing my name or who hasnt gotta skillful tongue, i’ll be ‘peiying’..

but again, to intro myself as ‘peiying’ or ‘ariane’ depends entirely on my mood..

just heard from a latest report that there was this couple in US who were attacked by a female lion in the theme park.. hmm.. and what was most amazing is that the guy was injured and it was his wife that saved him from danger.. by hacking the lion.. she was then labelled the female hero since.. in the interview, she said in humility that she was not courageuos at all.. and only that the circumstance aat that point in time that rendered to save her husband at all cost.. she depicted the meaning of ’till death do us part’..

in this example, i was truly amazed of what a lady could do, women are supposedly deemed more physically inferior to men.. hmm.. what was more ironical was that prior to the news report, there was a documentary featuring ‘the battle of the sexes’.. that in canada, only 6% of the decision board are women.. and there surfaces a qs of is it ‘natural selection’ or just plain ‘biasness’… true enough, many ‘up there’ are men.. and sadly to say, being a gal, i would also prefer a man’s judgement tahn anything else..

i was grooomed in a gals school , where we were trained to be more independent and vocal and who portray more confidence.. my friends around me were all ’super woman’..it was more so when i had this teacher in sec 4, that i almost wanted to study feminism then…

but i have no idea why this strong mentality that ‘both gender SHOULD be equal’ just dies off as time goes by.. not to say im totally a ‘little docile girl’ and reliant now.. just that i feel, guys do do a better job with things entrusted to them.

erm.. sorry, i think im kinda self contradict..

for example, i was having a haircut at jean yip *when i couldnt find ivan den).. and having this lady, and as she cut and dye my hair, she actually forgot the time duration and leaving my hair to rot with the dye.. and afterwhich, she was more like a professional mum when her daughter came disturbing her as she do my hair..

then, on another occasion, when i went to trim my hair, i was assaigned to another lady hair dresser again.. and this time round, i told her right in the face that i wanted a guy.. i think i was really tactless.. but that moment of tactfulness might cost me more if my hair cut sucks..

hmm.. but given now that we are given equal opportunity , i think we wont neccessary lose a battle…

i don’t know.. i think this will always be an issue .. whatever, i just marvel at that lady who went all out to risk her life just to save her husband.. and won the lion when her husband couldnt ….i mean, i thought it was supposed to be the man’s duty to protect a lady from danger.. and now …

"where’s my knight in shining armour?"

… i know, one day, i’ll really meet him…

well..im back from a day’s with the kids again.. slightly better.. the kids are slightly bigger and more mature..(at least)..

the class that i was assigned to was 4H and it seemed to be a relatively good class.. in terms of academic i supposed… they are slightly more intelligent and fewer slower pupils..

the most amazing thingy was that i met theophilus.. that cute little boy from pri 1G 3 years back.. and it;s kinda coincidental bumping into him again after 3 years.. however, the only big change is that he has put on lots of weight.. from a puny fair little boy to a slightly bigger frame , more chubby, and wearing specs..haha.. yes.. it’s him.. theophilus..i remembered him and his name because it sounded so shakespearean.. like some characters in macbeth or smthg…

after the class greetings and the usual protocol for the 1 day relief, i started off the lessons with the science textbook.. the chapter about water and its uses.. i think i gave theophilus a shock when i suddenly called out his name.. he must be wondering how the hell i knew his name.. hahah.. it was evident when he looked onto his nameless uniform and his astonish expression after i called his name..

i guess the greatest challenge for me academically was to explain photosynthesis in ‘lay man’s terms’…you know.. after what i have been through until now.. it’s quite difficult to expain to a pri 4 what is glucose and the ATP exchange and stuff.. i will always feel that my explanation is incomplete.. and somewhere the details are lacking..

whatever.. i just regurgitated what i learnt from MY pri 4 knowledge..

"photosynthesis is the process bywhich green plants make food in the presence of sunlight, carbon dioxide and water"

"then how about the red plants?"

….

i cant be explaining to them about the phytochromes and all…but i really feel like doing so! argh..

it was then math lesson, and i was instructed to cover that of improper fractions.. sometimes, it really takes a lot alot of patience into teaching the basics.. like how to derive 1r1r5 from 6r5…i would have to go :

" subtract 1 whole from 6/5 to get 1/5.. and then add up the 1 whole …."  when i can brainlessly do so for less than 1 second..

thank goodness the class was pretty intelligent.. (no wonder it is many teachers’ hope to get a good class..) and i needn’t spend too much time teaching them.. i only get a few ‘catch no ball’ students to come to me personally and i gave them special attention just to get the idea across..

afterwhich, that gave me great satisfaction.

i felt really great to have let the students learnt something new…but the thing which require the most patience was constant noise.. and i meant NOISE..

they can just yak 24/7 every moment.. and it’s very precious to get that 3 seconds of silence.. before i can make any announcements to the class..i just bury my head for a few seconds to mark the work, and the next moment you look up, you can see paper aeroplanes flying across , crashing down onto another desk.. 2 boys sharing seats and tickle each other…and when it’s time to line up for recess, i could see 1 boy riding onto to another boy’s back, and spanking his butt and then happily move on as if he were riding a horse..girls are better, they just talk non stop..

whenever i need their attention, i just have to stand in front of the class and raise my hand, which they would have to follow suit concomitant to silence. i just have to accept the fact that total silence is impossible in a primary school.. unless serious work is given…

the most gratifying moment would be the smiles of the kids and the cheerful greetings; exclaiming ‘Ms Lin!’ excitedly as they hop pass the corridor… =) and how excited are they to show you their drawings in their exercise books…

it’s wednesday.. and im back in to school..

not back to NUS, but back in a primary school..

Much as you’ve guessed it, yep, im back in relief teaching, and i was woken up at 650am… i was ‘cursing and swearing’ as usual, (whenever i have to wake up before the sun is completely up- and especially only gotten to sleep at 3 am the night before doing my report) and rushing off to the school..

when i reached the class, i was woken up by the class of 40 pri 2 kids..anyone of them would be more awake and alert than i do, ; i was still supposedly sleeping about 1 hour ago..but i knew, i had to be professional in front of the kids…. by yawning with my mouth closed..

the pri 2 kids are really cute.. as i scanned all of them down the row.. SO CUTE!!! some of them are so petite and have squeeky voice.. i just wanna hug them all..

but the issue is that.. you have 40 of them… 1 or 2 of this kind is cute to me.. 40 of such is a ‘mess of naughty things’.. as it’s still in the new year season, the kids are asked to be dressed in their new year costumes.. 1 of them don a hello kitty qipao.. hahah

it’s been quite sometime since i dealt with lower pri kids.. the thing i love most about kids.. is their voices.. especially when an entire group of small kids talk.. it’s quite melodious acutually..

so i guess i was psychologically sick enough to make them read over and over again.. muah hahah..

but the very tricky part is to get their full and utmost attention and to handle their constant yaks and fidgets…

like they can just laugh and play a moment ago, and the next thing the boy ‘went to box another’s face’… and ended up wailing loudly (as they line up for recess time).. some will purposely throw their eraser on the floor just to get up and pick it up, and happily hopping back to their own places, contented …

some just day dream.. and look so innocently blur..

the only time i can get them to settle down is to write an essay..

but as i marked them, (apart from their grammar and spelling mistakes), i will always have a good luagh at about what they can write.. i didnt want to stymie their creativity, so i allowed ‘free writing’ - since i have no obligations to stick to the syllabus..

they can write about monsters and how they look like in detail, some can say they go sabah climb mountain… only did i realise later on that this phrase ‘climb mountain in Sabah’ appears in the chapter of the text book.. no wonder… some say they can cook (as if.. i cant even cook properly) .. and the best part is they are always very fascinated by the little things around them.. like a fly buzzing around and they can behave as if they have seen an ET in the classsroom..

but some students just give me rubbish.. - an essay consisting of oly 2 sentences…

it was then time for assembly.. at 1130, the class was dismissed to the hall for some production by ACT 3.. it was a skit in conjunction with POSB savings bank.. anout this squirrel and the saving nuts.. and differentiating a ‘want’ and ‘need’ whenever you need to spend money..

those actors and actresses dressed in costumes seemed to have really intrigued them..the kids can focus their attention on them for almost 1 hour, when they cant even do so for lessons for only 5 minutes.. on top of that, they are always very enthusiastic and participative thru out the entire skit..

sometimes i wonder do teachers need to dress up in costumes to get the kids’ attention in class… and giving out prizes and condescend to their level in conversation especially..

well.. i guess so… this technique only applies to lower pri.

im assigned to a pri 4 class tomorrow…wonder how would it be then? wish me luck…

well.. what’s expected a few days ago has finally materialised.. and that everyone had been busy in preparation for this piggy year.. and yup.. finally it’s arrived..

the load of new year goodies has been there 2 wks prior to CNY.. my family has already eaten almost half of it.. love letters was also replenished.. hahah..

everything is more or less the same .. except we no longer go to my great grandma’s place since she has passed on few years back.. the collection of red packets has thus shrinked..i still remember my great grandma’s home was full of ppl.. alomost close to 50 plus? so many people to the extend that you cant even find a place to sit if you were slightly late.. hahah..

but now, i only get to visit my grandma’s home… hee hee

my cousins are still as fine.. some cousins i only get to see them once a year..  interactions with them hasnt chnaged, we are still as close.. like this year, ive got addtional angpow from cousin adrian, and next yr, another one to expect! wahahah…

it’s also a time for me to gamble healthily…so i spent the entire day 2 with my relatives to play mj..

friends came my home to visit… and i had a fantastic and fun gals’ stayover at my place… we had fun, food and havoc in my bedroom the entire night… haha! that’s really fun hanging out with you gals…

and my new year goodies are now left opened, and untouched.. that’s always the case, yearning for them before new year, and then no one will wanna touch them after the 2nd day…

in any way, a piggy year shall and will be a great year for you and me..!!!!

i was at kino that day looking at books and i chanced upon a reference text that is very relevant to my major…"HPLC for practising scientist".. it was a recommended text and it’s a really thin book… and it cost about $30 in co-op… however it acutally cost $129.50 in kino… woo..

"Inorganic Chemistry" by M&T cost less than $40 in co-op.. and kino is selling at $239..

i guess this is the privilege of being a student.. where on earth can get a 15% off anderson’s ice cream by being a student.. and also charles & keith when you buy shoes few years back…

hmm.. a few more weeks prior to graduation.. but i love being a uni student..becuase that’s the only time i can be late with no worries..

thru out my ten over years of education , the rule that i fear most is penalty for being late..

sometimes it’s just inevitable, sometimes the alarm clock is really spoilt in the middle of the night, sometimes you really cant hear it ringing.. sometimes traffic jams are not on purpose..

right now.. no prefect books you for being late.. and no ‘boss’ or ’spies’ around too..no one will care even if i skip lectures…or rather to put it crudely, no one bothers you at all.. hahah…

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new yr is around the corner…yeah.. long brekky for us.. happy heng heng piggy year everyone!

在夏日的深处。。遇见寻梦的女子。

她说回忆遗失在某个海边，从此深邃似海的瞳孔总在情满月的时分涨潮。。。

她说澥逅在黎明和黑夜的交界，爱情就注定在梦与醒之间徘徊。寻梦的女子从不放弃等待，学会将寂寞锁在心里，夜夜伴着不同的梦成了相思的俘虏， 在梦的最深处与久别的记忆重逢。

因为相信爱，相信梦想。。。在情感满潮的沙滩，看见女子张开翅膀飞向远方。。。