=*a.r.i.a.n.e=*

—this is a very bored ariane trying to make funny faces to entertain herself..

i woke up quite early today to mug at lower kent ridge road..science drive 1 … hmm.. met LJ and sandy at the library…i was in the midst of mugging when i suddenly noticed sandy’s hair clip..it was a mickey shaped hair pin.. so cute.. but the first thing that came across my mind wasnt mickey.. what i saw was a water molecule..haha…so i told her walt disney was a chemistry major too.. and that was how mickey evolved..well, i reckon i had too much of chemistry over the years i realised. not too sure if this was good or bad.. just weeks ago, i noticed myself doing something so ‘chemistry’..i was preparing myself a cup of lemonade… so i poured the contents into a cup.. subconciously, i added water to the empty cup of concentrated lemonade.. and poured the remaining contents into my mug.. then i suddenly thought to myself : do i need to do that? it was as if i was doing some experiment..avoiding any ‘waste’ of lemonade..and to ensure every mole of lemonade goes into my cup.. another phenomena i realised was i cant spell ’subtract’ at one go.. i would spell ’substance’ instead..as in my reflex would write an ’s’ after the ‘b’..because im so used to spelling ’substance’..(ok..just like im typing substract now..)

HW came to look for me after his paper and had lunch with him.. he told me his paper would end at 3pm.. when i realised it WAS JUST 3pm on my watch.. he actually left before the paper ended and said that 80% of the students left the hall after 1 hr.. wah.. that was something new..never came across a module where 80% of the students leave the hall after 1 hr..hmm.. either the paper was too easy.. or too hard.. haha… then we continued to discuss and planned enthusiastically for our ‘food trail’ after exams..hee hee.. eat from east to west.. north to south.. of course.. we need tok.. and his car.. woo..exciting.. and to hunt round places of ‘interest’ in singapore..hmm… wonder will it materialise?  anyway.. i mugged really hard today ok? see…

i noticed many cute stuff around me today as i made my way back.. saw an artistic piece of vandalism at buona v station…looks like my fav piggys… SO CUTE RIGHT?

then as came across this at whitesands shopping centre… so cute too..wah.. whitesands very happening now ok.. unlike the dead one like it used to be.. well..

everything change.. a change is always constant…

every morning, there will be this old man selling tissue papers outside the MRT station. he apppeared shabby to me; he’s very tanned with big eyes, a petite 60plus old man with lotsa protrudings on his face. wearing a radiant bright smile on his face, he would appraoch anyone and everyone that comes along, asking them to buy some tissue packets from him. alas, most declined with sheer disgust,some stuffed some money to him with symphathy and some just thought he was invisible.

i remember seeing him at 7am when i left for school, and like just any other passers-by, i just continued my journey. however, i was rather astonished to see him at the same place again when i was on my way home at 4pm. he was still wearing that big smile on his face, approaching any opportunity that comes along. what impressed me most was his perseverance and his undaunting smile, and his patience. he does not plead for sympathy, neither does he showed disppointment or vengence in rejections.to him, that was the decent job he’s holding, no element of sympathy yearned, and the huge smile on his face displayed pride in what he was doing.

he left an impact on me.. so i bought 2 packets from him.

if you love a flower that lives on a star, it is sweet to look at the sky at night. all the stars are abloom with flowers..my star will be just one of the stars for you. and so you will love to watch all the stars in heaven.in one of the stars i shall be living.. in one of them i shall be laughing..so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night…it will be as if, in place of the stars , it has given you a great number of bells which knew how to laugh..

in life.. it is of paramount importance to make the correct mistakes.. then only will you grow and learn from them..

one has to go through a series of ups and downs and life.. as ‘life is never a bed of roses’…downs make you a stronger person and make you a more competent person in dealing with the challenges in life. without the downs in life, one will never appreciate the ups.. and remember when you are up, always be prepared for the downside of life…

so, it is important to make the correct mistakes in life…

i am going to curse and bitch today!!! sorry people… my mood isn’t very good today… tossed and turned for 2 hours last night and i waited so long for sleep.. didnt know zhou ah knog can be so busy playing chess with people..

anyway, exam luck wasn’t on my side today. 3 papers down, closed books exams were finally over, and today, finally, an opened book exam. apparently, i was already in the ‘half liberated’ mode and was kind of displaying some non chalance for my dear CM3241..

well, dr basheer is really a very nice guy indeed; he gave us tips and told us that our projects will be tested. out of the 8 projects, 4 will be tested and we only need to do 2…okay.. fine… i printed 7, studied 5 and i guess more or less i’m able to pull through this section due to time constraint.okay.. im prepared for it..

saw daniel stella garry and guys and they appeared confident to me.. well…it doesn’t matter to me, so long i just do my best. Long awaited 9am finally came and i finally saw dr basheer up close and personal…(you know im always seated right at the back of the LT)..he has a kind face.. but little did i expect the questions…

i opened up the exam sheet… the first question that really freaked me out .."why is the sky blue?" i almost burst out laughing..then i saw basheer appproaching me while doing his rounds. Guess he kinda saw me giggling..and he kindly asked me " do you have any qs?" "no sir" haha.. although i almost wanted to ask him why is the sky blue…

the paper was sucky ( or am i just plain unlucky?) that the project qs that came out was none that i studied.. imagine the probability was almost 50%…haiz..nonetheless, i managed to survive that ordeal…

then i realised i had left just 5 min for my final qs.. T/F kind.. and there were like 30qs for that.. so i had no choice but to be exam smart.. i wrote T for all qs.. probability is 50%… haha…

back to that lame qs.. i almost wanted to write ‘because God created the blue sky".. but OF COURSE i wrote a decently scientific answer for it lah!

well… to my utmost horror.. the answer WAS in the lecture notes..

ariane… for the rest of your life.. you shall remember that the sky is blue is because of raleigh scattering…erm due to high frequency electromagnetic waves…shucks.. i just screw my whole paper up…

"hey! who left her handphone on the oven ah?"
i was woken up by this hailer, to realise that it was MY hp… gosh… remembered that i was feeling kinda hungry last night and i toasted some bread and you know.. that’s how my phone landed there..few days ago, i was telling LT that i was stressed at why i was not feeling as stressed now.. haha.. ah well.. reckon stress was just ’somewhere in me’…*yawn

then i did some revision and realised my mum was telling about some hp thingy.. wait cant really recall.. something about china manufacturing fake phones and cant differentiate real ones from korea…but i was doing my last minute cramming then.. and was puzzled why the hell did china made fake phones.. for kids?… so i ask my mum that lame qs on earth..

"mummy .. why china wanna make fake phones? for what? don’t tell me they so stupid till dunno how to diiferentiate workable phones or not.."

then my sis replied..

"fake phones cheaper lah! "

"huh??" (while still recalling that Tg is the melting point of glass polymers to rubbery sate in amorphous polymers)

"next year is YOUR year…"

"huh?"

"year of the pig"

"THANKS LOR!"

after awhile..

"OH! u mean IMITATION phones izzit?’

"ya lah!"

"haha..then say imitation phones lor… fake phones.."

"cos i have to use simpler vocab to your level mah.. haha"

"oh.. no need to CONDESCEND one.."

then she ask me what’s that big word.. i ask her check dictionary.. muah haha…

well.. at least.. it proves im still able to find some clarity of mind admist the cloudiness in my head..

then when i was on my way to sch, i recieve some unknown call from a guy… asking me the exam venue..what does EH stand for.. so i told him it’s Eusoff Hall.. afterwhich, i asked him who is he..he said he’s XX..i was like oh..

but after i hung my call, i asked my another friend beside me…"who’s XX?"

it took me the whole day to realise he’s my freshie….

u know, as a famous sweet nothing saying goes:

my heart is very small… it can only have a place for one person..

i’ll add on…

ariane’s quote:

my brain is smaller…much smaller.. hahaha..

what a morning to start… woke up very early in the morning.. and i realised i had run out of tooth paste.. you know it’s really frustrating to experience that in the morning.. like running out of toothpaste, no toiletpaper, etc.. so i went to my parents’ room to steal some.. yawn.. afterwhich i realised.. i had no breakfast. everyone’s out on that morning and i was SO hungry. well.. thank goodness, there’s always a mama shop below. with messy hair and unkempt attire, i went down to buy breakfast. bought some disgusting looking oily curry puffs, i met this lady in the lift. i was kind of surprised to realise we actually lived on the same level.. so i said to her

"oh hi! i didnt know we are neighbours..=) "

"haha..ya lor… dunno lah.. u all the face everytime change wan.."

"haha..ok bye" (lift door opened and we walked our separate ways)

hmm..well.. living in this closed door era trapped in cubicles of HDB flats, one wouldnt know if one was one’s neighbour. every unit at my level has their door closed. i miss the good old days in my old tampines home, where i had many gossiping friendly neighbours.. and the kids around our age played together. haiz.. now i feel we’re all living in solitude… confined in our own comfortable zone.. no one knows what happened next door…some years ago, my sister just realised that her prmary school teacher had actually lived 2 units away from us for almost a year but had migrated a few months back.. haha..

but what actually amused me most in my gloomy sleepy morning was her comment: dunno la.. u all the face everytime change wan… hahahaha… what stuck my mind was all of us are some opera change face master.. imagine that.. haha..

sometimes we just make comments that are so amusing, of course i knew what she meant exactly, but she could have put it in a more tactful way… just like weeks ago, i saw my friend in school and his girlfriend was there as well. so being friendly, i walked up to her and introduced myself… and she gave me a surprised look and a very funny reply : oh .. you actually came all the way to say hi to me? that’s so lame!"

well.. i didnt know how to respond to her comment.. that i thought i was being very friendly, and to hear such a comment, i was kind of astounded… …

by the way… let me show u my master piece for today… the ‘art’ of organic chemistry…

well… the thought of studying alone today dreaded me initially.. realised i need motivators around to keep my momentum going… met sandy and LJ they all at the library… felt so at home in the science library.. OK .. ARIANE IS NOW A FRIEND OF THE NUS SCIENCE LIBRARY.. the librarians kinda recognise my face now.. haha.. received some words of encouragement and motivation from my dear friends… and of course my sweetest freshies who offered me chocolates to get the endorphins outta me.. and friendly friends who come ‘disturb’ me from time to time .. they really made my day and i didny know studying can be so enjoyable.. haha! nothing interesting today… but my new theme application for my phone really intrigued me…. everyone’s studying so hard.. wah! add oil…add oil…

haha.. then i received a weird phonecall amidst studying.. looking for my friend when it’s my phone… and then that caller is my friend too.. wah..he must be really stressed to make such a blundder!

hee hee… today was another cold cold day in the library… and as usual, ive got the mental block … ended up staring at my IA textbk most of the time…haha… well.. at least i didnt fall asleep today..finished up going thru my tutorials.. everything seems kind of mundane today in the library, but what really caught my eye was the whole bunch of KE7 ppl snuggling in the library.. not literally, but they were all scattered all over the place.. the library was almost invaded by them.. well, it’s really a pleasant experience to study with a group of friends.. motivate one another..

well… the highlight for today was the CHEESECAKE! yeah.. went for supper at the cheesecale cafe at siglap… it was really a funkily cool place with hip ppl having ‘high tea’ at night.. it was a fantastic place to chill out you know, with good food and cool ambience, dining alfresco accompanied by jazzy music. the cheesecakes that the cafe serves are impressively unique, a spectrum of selection..savoury to sweet, sweet to savoury. i had rum and raisin cheesecake along with irish cream in milk.. hee hee.. loved the punches of alcohol here and there… ok.. let me relate what i have learnt today.. alcohol has a wee bit of sedative effect… it has an agonist effect on GABA receptors, opening up Cl- channels… shit.. i like cant regurgitate as well… ariane… STUDY HARDER!!!!!

came acoss this…

girls are like apples on trees..the best ones are at the top of the tree.. the guys dun wanna reach for the good ones cos they are afraid of falling and getting hurt.. instead they get the rotten apples from the ground that are not as good but easy. so the apples up there on top thought something was wrong with them when reality they are just amazing.. they just have to wait for the right guy to come along.. the one who’s brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree…